The New Tami

Since lots of changes are happening in my life all at once, this hasn't left much time for me to sit around and wait to be hit with epiphanies about why this is all occurring. I've had to roll with the punches with a smile on my face. Even though I've been quite melancholy on the inside for some time now, this isn't something I'm comfortable showing or expressing. For example, I'm not that person whose Facebook status goes from "I'm So Excited!!" one day to "This is such a terrible day. :-( " the very next; don't want people thinking I'm suffering from manic disorder. (Note: I tend to guess that people who do behave this way are just screaming for either attention or a prescription for antidepressants, or just misplaced the ones they already have, or something)

But back to "The New Tami". Here are just a few of the changes I'm currently going through:

1) I'm 2 weeks away from the end of my pregnancy. 'nuff said

2) Since being laid-off from my job back in April, I have become a Stay At Home Mom. I've learned a lot during this experience, mostly that I'm not cut out for it.

3) My hubby is rarely around due to EXTREME prep for the Bar Exam. Throughout our entire marriage, we are ALWAYS together, so this in itself has been extremely difficult.

4) I have reconnected with a lot of people that I haven't had a chance to interact with in years. This is because my normal everyday routine has completely changed and the circle of individuals that I interact with every single day is different now. First off, my sister and I have been having a BLAST! She's a teacher and has the entire summer off and just LOVES it! She spends Sunday evenings planning a fun-filled week for her and her kids. And she bakes things from scratch. And takes pictures and puts them in frames to hang around the house. Get this: Her hubby makes a TON of money, so they can more than afford daycare or camp for the summer. But she just wants her kids home with her all day every day! She's one of a kind! Also, I've had a chance to connect more closely to my church friends. That has definitely made a difference!!

5) I chopped off my crown and glory a week ago. All of that thick, beautiful hair that was cascading down my back is now a close-cropped, chic, sexy 'do! I can't keep my hubby off of me! Not that I could before either, though. ;-) I already sense people reacting to me differently. I don't have young guys barely out of their teens trying to approach me anymore. Bank tellers, waitstaff, people in general seem to take me more seriously without my having to be an a$$hole. In other words, by default I feel that people respect me more. I look my age now (much closer to it, at least) and I can't rely on my beautiful locks to turn heads and get people to notice me anymore. It's what's on the inside that will have to dominate now, so I've definitely got some work to do. :-)

More later...